I Exposed Myself

“The only way that we can live, is if we grow. The only way that we can grow is if we change. The only way that we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we can become exposed is if we throw ourselves out into the open. Do it. Throw yourself.” – C. JoyBell C. I was exposed recently. I was exposed in a way that I didn’t know could exist. It was painful. It was pleasurable. It was painful. It was healthy. It was helpful. It was enlightening. It was necessary. I learned a lot about myself. I have learned more about myself in these few weeks than I had in my previous 31 years. I was exposed and I learned. I learned it may be a time for change. What is change, though? Change what? I have a fantastic family. A smart, gorgeous wife that many find desirable. A smart and funny four-year old girl who knows more than I do and a vibrant two-year old boy, that is more masculine than I am and is already a lady killer. We have a great house. Much bigger than I ever thought I would have at this point in my life. We have a dog the kids love. I have televisions and computers and iPads and cars and cameras and iPhones and drums and guitars and furniture and an office. What could I change? I have it all. The family. The materials. What I didn’t have was myself. In highschool, I was fit. Six foot and 170 pounds. Now? I am still six-foot. But, I am very...

Tear Drops and Sunshine

“Happy marriages begin when we marry the ones we love, and they blossom when we love the ones we marry.” – Tom Mullen Every so often there comes a time in a couples’ life when complacency sets in. For whatever reasons. Work. School. Kids. Obesity. Whatever. We love the ones we are with, but we take it for granted. We go through the motions. I love you. How was work? Leave me alone. You look beautiful. Fart. Humping to hump.  The kids are idiots. I love my kids. Stop nagging me. Don’t be a douche. I love you. Humping to hump. Where is the romance? We complain about complacency and all of the complementing emotions involved with it. A week and a half ago I was complacent. I married way out of my league. Laura is smart, funny, insanely hot, compassionate and one of the best people I know on this planet. I’m not sure I showed it enough. I’m incredibly narcissistic, as anyone is. Maybe I was on the verge of sensitive. I took offense to things that weren’t offensive. Don’t get me wrong, Our marriage has never really been rocky. We have had maybe five legitimate fights in our whole career. Most of them dumb. All of them reassuring the way I feel about the MILF of my children. In the midst of the status quo, Laura had a highschool reunion and I had a similar event. I stayed and played video games with Jimmy, she went and got ogled by old classmates. I am not a jealous man. I knew that her best friend Kari and her...